March 29, 2006
"sing me a song, to ease ma troubled head,
wen the world stop me from
speakin ma mind i feel dead.....
sing me a rythem that will catch ma ears,
a tune that will make me 4get
my misery n tears...
gv me a beat that will touch ma soul,
4give me of all the sins in this
world i hold....
as the story unfold,
many visions i hold,
all the missions untold,
all the problems unsolve...
touch ma mind, body n soul...
gv me freedom of the mind,
unwind ma body,
n preach ma soul once again....
let me go of this buden that is killin me....
eating me up slowly from inside....
i beg u.....let me go....let me go....."
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March 27, 2006
the sad truth is that it's over.....the journey for the
warriors has ended...... warni(wirna), dale don dilah (fadhil), bisexual sundals
(marni), Ham Ham (jannah), tels (farain), susy(suhaila), Dokky2 (amir), Gay boy (zai) n myslf
fifi (elfi)..... together with guidence from our trainers n senior.....
The Gpa so called ended on a sad note not only not comin back w/o a
kemenagan but it marks the end of all the extreme long weekly n sat
trainings.... the warm up dance to the songs beep by PCD n goyang2 by Tamila
boys which nvr fails to cheer me up and i truely enjoy...n those intense
training that was at the same time Fun.....
this closure of a very
bonded chapter abt frenship, team work, growth, passion, sacrifices, gr8ness,
endurance, adptin, bravery, support for one another....made evry moment spent
wif u guys worth while....im sufferin the post GPA syndromes.....im already
missin u guys....like i dunno....i gonna miss joanna n fwens......
but
Millenia Institude were really Gr8...they r wat u call gr8ness......thus its
time to buck up ppl.....but its kinda hard especially when decisions are not in
ur hands.....u can speak ur mind but nth else.....im like tanpa
arah....production training will only take place weeks later.....i dun mind doin
the productions as long as the seniors comes prepared...its like a learnin point
ar.....coz its hard if evryth is inprepared... well i feel new...a new
person....we've grown ppl...time to improve n catch up wif the outside
world.....time to catch up wif the vision set.....let let go of those bad
moments n start new....i think i shud.....lets 4gv n move on....
already
sent all the pending msg.....like time to really sort my life..... im like ready
if u wanna throw me to another competition....th adreneline is juz
overwhelmin....so gr8....i wwanna continue performing....like dun mind doin this
all my life ar.....but opportunities takes time.....n i dunno if the othrs are
strong enuf...coz not evry1 is like me.....
sm of us r goin saperate
ways....sue n NCC, dok n zai dikir left the rest ar....tu pun...it'd be diffrent
a.....haiz...
in a months time i'll be a 3rd yr......a yr to graduation
n NS....am i ready?.... to let go of all this....i do think i need a break too
la...i'll take it as a training vacation...lol...as if it can be.... wonder wat
i'll get....shit la...nafa nanti....sit n reach...haiz.....im not flexi enuf
ar....maybe start trainin or smth......come'on.....n definately keep the habit
of the warm up dance...maybe even choragraph a new dancing
routine.....hahahaa....fun3....
so exited of wat the future holds....
lastly.....i seek forgiveness frm all....salah silap ku harap dimaaf
kan.....amin....
alhamdullilah...
> noted by the prince
March 24, 2006
hey im back.....a day b4 the day itslf....im having goosebums all over ma
body n multiple adrenaline rushes for no definate reason.....
" what doesn't kill u make u stronger..."
so exited for tomolo..... its gonna be worth more than 8 bucks.....i hope.....insyaallah.... its so funny afta all the confessions n the last word yesterday afta practice....im like speechless yesterday so i was thinking of puttin it into words here... ps: tho i tinkk sm wont be able to read this entry be it b4 or afta show time....i luv u all....
To ma fellow PS-ians,
Its been a long journey made short
the past 4 months or so.....we've been seein each other for 5 days a week and
giving our all for trainings.... ur laughter r mine, so are ur tears....u guys
always make ma day....n true frens like u guys accepts each of us as who we
are n not try to chg them.....
from the bottom of ma heart i wanna thank each n evry1 of u guys
for the pointers, support, love, care, trust and courage....thanks for the
strength, commitment, advices and evryth else....
Thanks for all the sacrifices its all gonna
pay
off.....Insyaallah....
u guys r winners in ma heart.....but tomolo is a bonus....a day
to hv fun n put out our best.....i noe u guys will do me proud....i will too
be
at ma level best.....lets make the audience cry, tears of
joy......hahaha.....touch thier heart.....
im gonna definately miss this moments i share with guys....the
practices, the dance, i so gonna miss ur laughter....
for all we've been thru together.....tomolo is the day....for
the nite we all dun want to rmbr...it time for us to leave those behind......put
our heads up high...dun cry....its our show.......Lets do it NYP style....
i guess to summarize evryth....i luv u all.....
Hidup Melayu Asli
"Pusaka Seni Ke Tingkatan Lebih Tinggi...."
Salam,
Elfi Ismail
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March 16, 2006
well its been AWHILE SINCE I LAST UPDATE.....
TEP has gotten worse with nth to do at events n this flash assignment which i dun really noe how to do....submission is on monday....but i dunnoe how to do.....
so helpp....FLASH>>>anione???
im gonna die....
it's sad wen u bring a particular downfall into the team...so call ma mistake la....but ure 4given la...i tink we didnt inform u....
so lets put it aside.....
i dunno wat to say....coz i do nth at attachment except for sleepin in mcg room....hahahah....
niwae thx to all for ur doa, ma bro's back hm...alhamdulilah
"u feel it most wen u lose it"
> noted by the prince
March 14, 2006
F**kin
C for DMSM tep....i mean since wen the grades matter.... i noe wat i hv learnt....butn its so obvious he hates me till he hv to credit me wif a C....while the rest got A
s n B
s....some ddoesnt even deserve that...
he said im passionate abt ma work duh!!....i mean wat kind of freakin citeria do they judge on...or i shud he....4
th lvler... but even so.....even mr. azhar wont be able to help me....
these whole tep thingy is juz a scam....teachin u how to suck up......well its the werkin world...i agree......****ponderin****
so in conclusion an employer will choose a stagnant employee over dat slacks over an improvin employee who is productive...
wateva lah....
fuck.....wat the
hell....i deserve a freakin A.....i noe that....
so ya......trust this words....this is that turnin pt...i make big smday.....in that industry....this is not the last of time u'll c me.....damn freeriders....damn sucker supervisor....mr ET....ure such a bitch....
> noted by the prince
March 10, 2006
im so sleepy....hahaha.....i got a loudhailer....hahahaha
"TRANSISTOR MEGAPHONE"
WITH WHISTLE SIGNAL
so im goin crazy....testing...testing 1 2 3......
events at two yet nth is done....so cool....so slack....juz pray that evrth will be fine.....
goin friday prayers soon.....not that soon la but lata......got over yesterday...i guess the lack of sleep kinda got to me....but thx to sm1 who cheered me up n kept me company....
hahahha....its so strge i barely noe her yet she cud make me smile.....with the least thing we hv to talk abt....yet it's amazing how she can make me laugh or juz smile to maslf..... its juz a wonderful bond.....a bond wif a stranger i barely noe.....n now im her fwen....hahah....its juz so .....hm.... its juz a blessing ... n hv i mention she has charmin personality.... she's ma beautiful stranger.....=)
"smtimes the person u barely noe, can add spice to ur life..."
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March 09, 2006
im lost, i dunno wat i want..... maybe i made to think dat way....but it seems so now....
im so unstable.....n i worry abt the finals....whether i cud give ma all.....coz so far the trainings r one of the few things dat make me happy....well maybe its close to the only thing...
im worried abt maslf more then the others......conflictin ma own views....ma health, ma future, ma LIFE.....i dunno who i am animore.....thats the scariest point......
i wish that its juz another one of those days im feelin this way......
perhaps if i list it out...maybe i cud figure it out...
Wworried ABOUT
> ma flexibilty n ma strength...basically for
nafa that is comin b4 ma ns enlistment...
> not havin time for ma fwen n family
>
NS, yes it suddenly strike me.....
> ma looks...(ya cliche') basically i dun really feel good abt maslf animore....
> ma poly life.....graduation....its gonna be in less then a year time...
> pusaka seni... on whether i be able to continue performin wif them.....
> ma social life....im always withdrawn from others in a grp...its like a
curse....
> ma unstability....
> ma temper: which juz make no sense...
>
haiz....im
afraid la...yes i am.....of tomolo......which shud not be a matter......i noe we shud take our life day by day....but...
thats how it hangs, u'll say i need to overcome this fear......
im trying...
> noted by the prince
March 07, 2006
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> noted by the prince
afta tep there will be a
2 weeks break..then we r doing
classical modules....
wohoooo....thats a
gr8 new ive been waiting for
centuries.....at last....im given
life again......now can skip lectures to go out wif fwens.......do tutorial...n exams....finally a real exam....im gettin dumbber evry min i got into this biz course....hahaha....so yeah.....fwens once i start classical pls make plans wif me.....go out ...chill smwhr, club, tann.....wateva.....coz thats the last period of time i can enjoy life as a teen......quite a short 6 months.....sad...coz afta that i be goin for industrial attachments then, final project ....graduation n NS.....so bye2 to the teeen world by then.....
hm.....ma life so packed.....haiz....
niwae this mornin woke up late......n been late for attachment quite regular ....shit ar.....
n ma legs feel as though they can let go anytime... training as usual today....
"smtimes u wake up to an emptiness, n u only got urslf to blame...."
im bored....tep gettin suckier evryday...its ok....5 weeks left....- 1 week of blog leave....the ooutz.....freedom...
bored!!!!
Price Outz
> noted by the prince
March 06, 2006
9.11am.....at tep EMRS.... like ma grp out to breakfast...shid busy tellin her tales to silah....all the monday routines...accompanied by shid takin self potraits of herslf.....
so drama pratices has been tiring me out.....hvnt had any sleep from yesterday......was out at bradell mc wif nad n sonia.....well salah sendiri....hahahha....
so here i am oonly back at emrs room at 2.30...thinkin that there's a meetin at two but who is meeting up wen evry 1 else sleepin too...
"even superman cant save evry1 in the world"
that is how im suppose to feeel....but im feelin otherwise.....like i dunno...evry1 in ma life start seekin resolution thru smoking......i juz dun understand all the crucial decision they r making.....
like seriously......all ma fwen are taken away...one by one r startin to smoke.....or even regain thier smokin habit......i smtimes blame myslf for not stoppin them......but to realise that its not ma fault n that each n evry1 of them had made that decision whether in the mids-of-time or in full aawareness..... it seems to be an amusing ttool to run or rebel against the main source of the problem....but it make no sense on how it help u run....juz for awhile.....it aint worth it aniwae......im juz freakin worried.....VERY.....
"for evry puff they take, it pains ma heart so...."
Elfi OUTz
> noted by the prince
March 05, 2006
I MIsS U GuyS
Best yr one buddies.... my family ratizayidelfida
jamie sotong
maria nad big n small n hippo
my bros n sis
the blues.....
ma dramatic bro n sis
ma sweet heart n broz
aishx n yana.... ma bro ayid.....
adeq ku
hippo ducky chickwy & cowy
zul n anwar.....
A fo aniza.....
ma best best fwen, uul
nady nady nady
pusaka seni peeps
ma darl wawa
i luv u guys so much...im sorry i cant be there wen u need me...i really am....luv u all...
sob2....i miss ma fwens....i miss them all...i got no more sweet moment....funess we shared...im deprived of the time spent wif u guys....miss ya all so much....
> noted by the prince
March 03, 2006
well like wat it seems to the eyes..im as haapy as can be...im a good lier.....that the person in the mirror am f
ooled wif wat of me......
"all thats left of me is what i pretend to be,
so together but so broken up inside"
its juz feel so m
ess up lately... i dun really noe wat i want...who i am...
i noe i cant depend on sm1 to piece me up together...
i feel lonely.... i do...even wif ppl ard me......
i miss ma fwens....nads ida zza.t mok sariina ct zuk n more....n ma bro yayid....ive been to pre-occupied wif attachment, work & drama.....i luv ma drama peeps...but i miss the rest....like adeq and all.....
i wanna cry but these teear are tuck beneath the eye surface....wen i look int the mirror...i smile....not wanting to accept the fact that im down or misery.....
coz thats not the life i want.....
smtime i rush to much for the good stuff....that i bearly hv time to enjoy it...maybe its juz me i need to take it slow.....juz take it slow...
"we're ordinary ppl, we dunno which way to go....
coz we're ordinary ppl, i think we shud juz take it slow....."
today bodem....werkin later....stress abt the roster...hope i can solve it....i pray.....
> noted by the prince
March 02, 2006
i noe i shudnt juz trust cuz it make so vulnerable.....yes that wat i am now....a thin piece of ice that can melt or break anytime under pressure....im not puttin the blame on any1....but so wat the fuck......it that fuckin freakin world.....it juz plays wif u....bring u n fly u up high.....then drop n let go of u from up high......
so tired n exhausted....training push to 4.30pm today......
tutu is amusing!!!!niwae.... im broken as sop to say.....maybe its juz the days......but i'll juz dance all this away....like literally dance it off.....
> noted by the prince
March 01, 2006
so its a new bloggy....a new start....hm......its only the 2nd training day...
im like so ware out.....howeva its spelled...
i dreamt of smth funny last nite... like i was in the tep shirt....but then sm1 stop me to actually completely....completely button ma shirt...all 3 buttons....its like crap huh?? like wat the hell....
hm its been fun ar training.....still....many probs lay ahead...i always tend to give up wen all r in a mess.....but.....its seems that i juz gotta be strong....its juz so strange....the more the path is cleared....the more blockage is created.......im totally crappin rite now.....tired.....exhausted....seriously..
***smtimes the emptiness is wat u r left with......the qn is....what u r lookin for...??
> noted by the prince
Gema Puisi Artistik 2006(GPA)
Location: Nanyang Junior College, serangoon ave 3...
Time & date: ard 12-1 on the 25/03/06
Tix: $8
Hidup Pusaka Seni!
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