May 30, 2006

im sad....dunno y ar...

i feel depart....like damn depressed.....now that evryth is fine towards production...yeah im gr8ful....
fiza got to her terms......n im so proud of u ma drama queen...it was damn simple issue like like wat fai mention.....the sucess of the production was wat evry1 was intending to achieve... like a common goal that cud simply unite us....

y im depart is bcoz...i feel a lost.... i miss ma fwens....ayid n nad especially....

then...there goes ma gpa teamates....i noe u guys evryth has to come to an end... like we hv our own pathways now......diffrent reach.....diff aim....i miss those times.....thos we can nvr turn back time....those we're the time we felt like one right.....now we many diff rights.....we all are growing up to be gr8 individuals......

i miss dhil who is so fun....endless jokes...he's enthuness....
i miss dok sense of wantin to noe more n more...his slengeness wich made evry prac worth it...
i miss ham2....alot...jannah...like i miss u most ar...dunno y....but its hard to c ya ard...
i miss farain complaints....n mentel gimmics....
i miss wirna comment and free flow of tots....
i miss sue.... laughing....n burpin so loudly n scolding me...with sound advices...
i miss marni.....fun n crazy acts...that juz made ma days...

I MISS feazah & friend so damn much........the trainings...

i miss those tears....hardwork.....long trainings....i miss the stage...i miss the nerve....
arghhh.....well maybe fadhil is rie...im still not over GPA>>>n i shud look to the future instead of lookin back
***tears juz flew down ma cheesks****

well to add....im gonna miss PS....especially to this 5 younger sis n bro of the stage: mai,khai,aameer,ayu n aminah....u guys chg me.....to be a better person...to learn to understand n initiate wats best for all....i luv u guys...

im actually donno why im continously tearin.....feel like ma time wwith u guys will end soon.....i be goin on wif ma life.....less then a yr time....im graduating....now kmpung ubi production will take up ma time....

well wir's lat week in skul also....haiz...so many goodbyes to come soon...

****tears****

""m a mess.....i juz breakin into pieces.....
tho im glue-ing evryth
back together slowly....."

check it out ppl....testing tray...

erm2.... PS testin scrappic...



yg lain lum snap2....jadi make urslf available lor..hehehe

n dok.. hamba mintak maaf banyak2...

but his pic is worth a thousand words on its own...muahahah

May 27, 2006

im sad....coz...im a mess...wif skool....

im sad...coz....ma dearies are too....

im sad...coz...i tried to do smth abt it but i cant....

im sad...coz...lots of stuff are juz getting out of hand...

but im happy....

coz i hv ma family n fwen, dearies that i luv...ma pusaka seni peep which keep me strg n moving......adeq which smtimes doesnt make sense but sshe now do..hahaha...

im tired....of no being able to chg wat i want, to express maslf, not appreciated....n sick of the floodin PIMPLES on this F^%&ing face...of not be courages enuf to do wat i luv....of being sick again n again......

well today i manage to fill up half of the masquerade thingy.... im not sure how its gonna look...but it simply can be calssified as a fushion....

im stressed...i am.....help me....save me....

for i hv always savED myslf....

"it kills to noe evryth, coz the truth is nth but pain..."

May 25, 2006

Unforgivable sinner- Lene Marlin

Kinda lose your sense of time'
Cause the days don't matter no more
All the feelings that you hide
Gonna tear you up inside
You hope she knows you tried

Follows you around all day
And you wake up soaking wet'
Cause between this world and eternity
There is a face you hope to see

You been walking around in tears
No answers are there to get
You won't ever be the same
Someone cries and you're to blame

Struggling with a fight inside
Sorrow you'll defeat
The picture you see it won't disappear
Not unpleasant dreams or her voice you hear

Maybe one time lost
But now you're found
Stand right up before
You hit the ground

Maybe one time lost
But now you're found
Stand right up before
You hit the ground - hit the ground

You know where you've sent her
You sure know where you are
You're trying to ease off
But you know you won't get far
And now she's up there
Sings like an angel
But you can't hear those words
And now she's up there
Sings like an angel
Unforgivable sinner

May 24, 2006

realli wonder y.....unforgivable sinner, been playin again2 in ma head.....

yeah im still up...its 4.40am....tho i open a word doc...nth is out.....hm....im so dead huh....

n wat telah happen sue.....i juz read ma msg....gosh....wat e hell....

so how now elfi....u need that proposal done.....cmon ar....work ur ass.....lazy bum....

hehehe...maybe i shower....den i start on it.....at 5 am??? hahaha....im really crazy...

view today rehersal clip more than abt 10 times....
well.....its a good start....thos time is running out.....
i kinda doubt if i can....but shit la elf....stop doin this to urslf....
u r ELFI.....be it......

alhamdulilah......dat got out.....now i hv a peace of mind...hehe...

not realli.....i guess i''ll tell maslf to stop worryin....

May 23, 2006

well im back hm....wanted to blog yesterday but failed to...

malacca was fun n relaxing....but it had to end wif an arguement wif dad.....u may noe how awful it seem.....n coming home welcomed by zul's karenah.....well no offence zul.....if in the 1st place u dont wanna act.....save us from all the trouble.....coz all we are tryin to do is help......but for once....help urslf.....

so i bought mask for the maquerade dance......thx to ma grandma for paying for it...smtimes wen it comes to this kind of stuff ma mom wont/ refuse to understand y i wanna buy it........strange....

well i noe i bought nth for u guys.....juz simply bcoz there was nth worth buyin.....like i didnt even buy anyth for maslf....it was juz food n transportation expenses.......

n pic will be uploaded soon.....

for all the relaxation i had....it was insufficient for wat is up for me in the months to come....

like report due on tues ive yet to start.....skool fwen family n passion... is kinda a struggle.. balancing? im trying.....

niwae i be performin for kampung ubi cc....tho im buzy cant let such a powerful script pass infront of ma face.....hm... it touches on the issue on premarital sex....such a sensitif topic.....dealt so easily in the script thru potrayin sm1's inner thoughs n conflict.....

cam 1st time readin i felt dumb ar.....bein introduce to > INTIPATI/EKSPOSISI/pergelutan even words like memperlekehkanya.... was the few word i came across.....ive only rec babak 1-6(chap 1-6) yet its a wow.....cant believe the exitment im feelin....aha....its well structured i must say.....

moving on.......took mc from skool......but came for drama as usual......wat tiring mentally for me.....u ma body was like giving up on me......i pull maslf together....thx to ma ps mates....u guys made ma nite.......trainin ended off wif a very heartfelt discussion........like stuff were tot thru....n emotions dealt with.... problem str8ten out....

like the masquerade is gonna be really pushy n tiring.....i may be a painter, i need ma brushes n colour to potray ma painting n convey the msg.....thus u guys will make who i am......

im scared honestly....but i trust u guys so much...... its gonna be a worth.....

Luv u all PS-ians....

n to naddy n yayid....i miss u guys like hell....but i barely got time to meet up....this is the longest i ve not meet up wif u guys......haiz.....feels like 4eva......

im stuck wif this song "unforgivable sinner" by lene marlin

.....tho every1 else is asleep already...im abandoned.....hehehe....(exegerated).. shud i start on ma proposal??? im tired ar..

hmph...

we'll c how....

****continue bein exited for the Pusaka Seni Showcase......thats all the energy i need......all of u......each n evry1 is ma light.....that keeps me moving......this is dedicated to all of u..... thx for the support n cr..... i luv u all....from the bottom of ma heart...i really do....

May 20, 2006

leavin 4 malacca.....later.....planning for the mornin bus....but ma guard feelin says.....we will take the bus at noon to malacca.....

yet to pack ma bag....kinda exited tho a little sad....

i luv u naddy, ayid, adeq,wawa, all ma mcg peeps especially those closest to me in PS; sue,wirna,dhil,dok,marni,jannah,farain,
zai,fiza,aniza,khai,mai,aameer,aminah,
rahayu,hairi,zul........

pray dat i hv a safe journey there n back home....amin.....

i take this opportunity....to say....i luv u guys n cherish all the moments i share wif u guys......thank you...i'll miss ya...


***i'll be back on mon nite.....muackss to all...

May 17, 2006

thx la eh.....i got C+ for attachments.....thx to f**kin setan...dat dog.......

its a scam.....im serious....arghhh....useless....now ma GPA from 3.0 drop to 2.55 la eh

y the hell am i doin in this biz course....its simple teachin suckin up is evrth......nth else matters....

luckily im back classical....haiz....i'll try to revive from this....

study sudy study......semangat kental....

May 15, 2006

its unfair to ma fans if i dun continue blogginn....heheheh....so ya..
a kitten in ma toilet....!! how cud anyth else be more dramatic. so ya we got a kitten in ma hse...a white baby furball....of all the discussion abt it was most intrestin wen chatin wif fiza....>>>

fiza: its so wrong la... NOW IM IMAGINING THINGS... boy + kitten =...................
*~Prince Elf~* :baby
*~Prince Elf~* :hehehe
fiza:baby..... yes... most prolly... but still... if your cutie little sis ask for it nvm... your bro??!
fiza:MUST BE THE TELEVISIONS!!
*~Prince Elf~* :hahahaa
fiza:im not going to scare you but you will get paranoid of its existence... like everywhere you rest/sit you will have to think first have the kitten been there to do its business or not...
*~Prince Elf~* :ur so funny....hahaha
fiza:and if unrealising sleep/drool on it... PIMPLES... YOUR WORST NIGHTMARE.
you will go crazy... your mum will go crazy. you mum drives dad crazy. dad gets angry at bro. bro sad and blame the kitten. you little sister sad and defend the kitten.. fifi will not care...
wah... boleh buat production.
title: the anak kucing.
*~Prince Elf~* : true3

hahaha....gosh....n thx to ma big f***ing mouth i will may nvr eva be a main character....not that its a big deal....but duh!!...im stupid....haiyo
skrip....where's is the skrip.....arghhh..
n tjc productn....well the idea is there...applause....gd effort....
but bijan n ely rocks.....emo guy, ure gttin there....the other guy i dunno who...but damn there good....

so the kitty is still meowin in the jamban wif te lights off.....i donno, ma dad say its to train the kitty to do its business there.....

kesian die.... k la....im so sick....skool sok....hope i wont be late....da kene sound ari tu....

May 07, 2006

since sm ppl are sick of ma COMMON entries....hehehe... i shall blog smthh new today...

heee....

well today was considered a ph for ma work place...but im not werkin...yahoo....so went to the island at the south of spore, SENTOSA... it's nurul suprise party......in the end ayid manage to join us afta werk....haha...but u noe wat....i waited for them at habourfront for 2 hrs.... but its nth new ar....hehehe... coz in the end i had fun....i realise i hvnt been workin out lately n im becoming fat.....hee......muahahahha...kekekek....as usual we play sevral game n ma team lost....again...hahahha....darn big loser man....

but damn it was fun n relaxin....cross over to the other side at palawan beach......then swim back across.....sadly there's no more plank....was swimmin with the gang wen there this hot chick juz sittin by herslf at the rocks at the oppsite....was jokin ard n took a 2nd/ 3rd/ 4th or....... glance...heheh

suddenly she wasnt aniwhre in sight.....bohoo.....

then ghouse n nurul almost drown.....hm....but luckily two heros we're ard....we tot it was a joke....but then...so tauhid to the rescue....saving thse two from the deeper end follow by me....i pushed ghouse out to a higher height then grab nurul to the same....felt good.....yeah....super elf.....hahahah....thanks to bro ayid for teachin me how to float earlier n also life saving technique.... wat a terrible coincedence....
so afta that evry1 chged while me n ma bro ayid juz chilled n fell asleep....ahah

n today also is a day where i was the radio of the grp...entertainin them with hits in both malay n eng....thx guys fpr hypin up ma confidence in singing....n to mala n shazanah....thx for ur compliments...i noe u guys luv how i irritate u wif ma singin...haha....thx for being ma fans....ahacks....mauahhaha

n ya went to the boring new musical fountain.....sm poodles irrratated me at the q...
bt damn i had a gr8 time....lookin at eye candies n couples makin out....muahaha.... ish3....
yeah the thing that was so sweet was tauhid n his galfwen....i dunno....juz make me feel like fallin in luv.....bleah....craps.....kekekeke

so im werkin at 7pm tommoro.....be chillin at home till then....yippy....

n aniwae.....YEah...im darker.....i got a tann to simply describe maslf...i look like OREO....black on the outside white on the inside.....its more obvious on ma body.... due to the singlet tanning....muahahhaha...

May 05, 2006

im feeling sick shitty fat ugly dumb n retard

i miss eja n all the fun......
i still rmbr wat eja say if u feel good abt wat u do it means that ur improving
if u feel sucky then its otherwise.....

so wat do u tink....do i make sense.....????

wat if we dun dance during drama prac???
how wud it be like.???

wat if i juz shut up n leave all the training n practice to others????
wat wud it be like????

am i not needed...... i dont need credit.....i juz wanna persue this passion...
am i wrg.... i mean u noe i can dance...u noe i wanna dance.....
y are u being ignorant.... am i that bad....
till i become invisible to u...

so hv u had enuf....i bet u dont.....
n btw respect is earn not demanded....
tho it's a little late to earn it now....

but its worth tryin isnt it???

i noe......

May 01, 2006

Where Is Your Heart - Kelly Clarkson
I don't believe
In the smile that you leave me with
When you walk away
And say goodbye

Well I don't expect
The world to move underneath me
But for God's sake
Could you try?

I know that you're true to me
You're always there
You say you care I know that you want to be mine

Where is your heart?
'Cause I don't really feel you
Where is your heart?
What I really want is to believe you
Is it so hard To give me what I need?
I want your heart to bleed
That's all I'm asking for
Oh, where is your heart?

I don't understand
Your love is so cold
It's always me who's reaching out
For your hand

And I've always dreamed
That love would be effortless
Like a petal fallin' to the ground
A dreamer followin' his dream

It seems so much is left unsaid
So much is left unsaid
But you can say anything
Oh, anytime you need
Baby, it's just you and me
Oh you and me

I know that you're true to me
You're always there
You say you care
I know that you want to be mine