June 30, 2006

a shot in malacca town....hahah...miss the hols man.....days hv been heavy n tiring.....skool has become a hassle....a mess.....smtime i ask y im here...doin smth i shudnt hv...not that i regret it...coz i got to meet ma PS dearies.....
like its more then word to express how u guys means so much to me...

today we did formation....well werkin hard...i thank evry1 of u for givin me ur support n make this werk...insyaallah....


quick!!!....colour ma world....


still waiting.....waiting for U....
still hanging on....for U
still dreamin....dreamin of U
still longing.... longing for U
still loving....loving U...
wen will U come?
and save me from this darkness,
that im living in....


a shout out to the five main cast of Layar andayu 2006, wich is on 7 july 06....break a leg guys....(gd luck the theater way as mention by my bestfwen fiza)..u guys will be gr8 on stage......u guys deserve a round of applause for ur passion....for strivin on....for ur dedication in this production....

Luv Prince Of Charms....Elfi

June 23, 2006

like its almost 4eva......for me to update this blog, been in skool thos its the hols.....pack wif layar andayu prac.... i hv like two report due on mon....1 presentation n written test on quality ngt(a hell module).....

but for the sake of fwens that been wondering why i cant meett u guys to hang out....im really sorry....n u guys are always in ma heart.....ur words n support is deeply appreciated.... those r the key of strength i live ma days wif.....im tired...very.... but insyaalah we'll meet up soon...

n ya...hols ended for me....this mon like i mentioned...back to skool....

so juz beep me iif anyth....for tix bookin for layar andayu 2006....or any enquires... u can contact fadhil @ 91000824 or zahidah @ 90087440. do log on to andayu.blogspot.com for further details...

tk cr to all....

June 17, 2006

im sick to ma tummy......argghhh

projects piling

prodution in comin.....

n issues that made me remuk hati.....

n ma tummy really hurts...juz got a msg frm sue...she's flyin??? to whr...hm...i dunnoe...

im so bored.....i need to begin ma project soon i think.....

life goes on doesnt it.....

refusin to live it the way it was, simply broken hearted....

June 12, 2006

smhw i dunnoe y ma last nite entry is missin......n signing in to msn....w/o any PS-ian ard...seems pointless....hehehhe

so ya.....i cried for the first time.....watching SO U THINK U CAN DANCE....wohooo....tear of joy.....inspired.....totally....goosebums...repeatedly...

gosh.....im such a mess......maybe fiz hv sm truth i shud focus on dancing..... but i enjoy drama so much....hahaha....i dunnoe wat the future holds....but im exited....always dream to dance sm1 cheography on stage....wait n c....that day will come......hah....

werk is another thig...went to champ check hvin wierd stares from gal from rest sides...dunno good or bad......well wat can i say nth special happen.....hahhaha....

the show juz ended.....NICK won....arggghhh....im cryin like nuts.....like come on elfi ure juz watchin that fuckin show not IN IT......hahaha its freakin awesome..........wahahhahahah.....

im such an arse.....wakakak.....i'll be a BAD ASS......one day....

im happy......dancing.....dancing.....dancing....who crs wat ppl say...im dancing......im gr8 fulll.....


i kinda understand wat faezah always said .i can choose to be smwhr else .but i choose to be here
well i feel the same way......

3 week left or less....
u guys enjoy wat u are doin.but wen its time to focus n go intensive
sume crumble....i feel we all shud support each othr.... n make this a solid essemble...(if thats how u spell it)


it will b fun but u guys but im telling u guys straight dat its time to focus n dats it... let work together.....muacksss

othr than that...im happy...

lookin thru phto albums, finding smth to be sad abt....istead found many more reasons to smile....ahacks....

June 07, 2006

kk....here wat im wanted to express yesterday during debriefing.....

well to ma fellow PS-ian....there is moments in life we part....tho i noe ma time will come soon....coz i hv less then a yr left in this skool.... i juz want u guys to noe...dat i luv u guys.....n keep doin wat u guys do best.... well i dunnoe y but ma feelin says that ma time wif u guys will be shortenn tho....

thus i take this opportunity to thank evry1 of u....coz u juz make me feel special....coz all of u are special in ur own way......n thank u for makin ma stay here worth evry min....

i noe dat goodbye will be hard...thus im preparing ma slf.....coz i nooe it will be very difficult....personally..... i luv u guys i really do...

masa tak dapat diputar kembali,
kehadiran org yg di kasihi,
walau pun pergelutan sering berlaku,
ku tetap kasih kpd mu....

hidupku andai bersinar,
di terangi dgn bintang2 hati ku...
tidak ada kata yg dpt dipapar,
salam syg kpd kesayngan ku....

ELFI ISMAIL...

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hahahaa....like im so tired la... missed ica this mornin...luckily ma lec is nice enuf for me to join the fri class...n of coz i lied...

so here i am at dram prac at 308..... haiyo...im a mess ler....danial n pak long....likke i hv to chg n adapt to ma character every week....but pak long is more alive now..... juz need to hafal skrip.....i dunnnoee la...but i feel crappy.....ure supppose to feel good abt wat u do...but lights r at that end.... at least there's hope huh.....im cant figure wat im feelin....hm....well sat nak gi mos but sun prac for kpg ubi production.......at 11.15 pat bedok.....so how....elfi ooi.....

hoow eh....like dilemma.....

June 05, 2006

hey.....i m sick of sad entries abt ppl lives affectin me so much....

lets tok abt luv....

haahhaa....not really luv but gals.....haah...wait...let me update u first,

so afta kpg ubi cc session me n fiza went town.....first was this man at the counter takin our orders n repeatin it at the top of his voice that evry1 at the restaurant noes wat we're orderin....while consumin our meal.....i notice the gal at the counter...maha belo ar temenong....ok2 ar....hehe....

nxt we watch She's the man....a freakin HOTT movie....amanda bynes ur so freakin sexy...hahahah ...

n oh yeah forgot to mention outside cineleisure was a few performance....first a silat performance...this ''datin" did her thing la eh.....u can nvr imagine how hilarious it was.....
nxt was a freakin typical spore bad...plays good music w/o a good vocalist....me n fiza we in the centre of attraction....where evry move we made can be clearly seen by anyone....theere i was shaking n minahs2 infront keep turnin thier head.....so we went of....

then went starbuck....we hv chichiwomen a raggae chick n emo chick at the counter laughin at ma crazy act at the counter wif fiza anticipatin evryth i say....i waas shy...damn i blushed...thats freakin lame.......

then went to bugis...shop shop shop....no i hv a torn pocket....a total of 70 buck spent in half a day......im back to sq 1.....spending ma allowances so briefly....hehehe...it was destressin....fizz..im suppose to call u....but i 4 got ur number....was it 1800-biatch....hehhehe

well to endoff this beautiful entry with a very beautiful quote....


wif luv,

Elfi Ismail....

Story of my life
Searching for the right
But it keeps avoiding me
Sorrow in my soul
cause it seems that wrong
really loves my company

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like sori ar fiza i had a gr8 day today out to town n meetin kpg ubi cast.....suppose to be happy entries here...but ppl keepin walkin out the door n it kills me inside....

im juz tryin to be strg.....aku pun ade hati dan perasaan....aku bukan tungkul atau batu yg kau basahi dgn airmata lalu campak bile tak diperlukan.....

im always here giving all ma support....but ma presence is taken invisible.....thus i dun c a reason me being there....or even standin/fightin for where i stand or lie...

i start of with a selfish plot...i admit....i wanted to showcase ma idea on stage......but then i learn to love each n evry1 of u in ma PS.....im doin this for u.....not for maslf.....coz u all matter more then maslf.......im selfish.....but u guys made me a beta person....to think for others......
thus im doin this dance neither juz for me nor u guys....but for US...

im thankful for evry1 who supported me......constantly pushin me......giving thier all... but stop crashin urslf to the wall....i cant continueously pick u up....im not superman....even superman cant save evry1.......lagikan aku hanya manusia biasa.......

i made mistakes in ma life....thus a door of opportunity closes on me.....but let me ask u....is it selfish to enter wen another door opens while the other closes on me.....wif an array of hope n beta opportunity.....is it selfish???

im juz tryin to live ma passion....isit wrg? am i selfish......

for im still always here supportin u...... hvnt u realise it......

this is one of the times i miss ham2 most coz.....i miss her listenin ears....for that i thank u so much ham2......

wif that i seek 4giveness to any1 i hurt.....forgive me of ma sins....

"aku berhenti berharap....."

ma dearies,

Our love
Is trust
U might as well take a gun and put it to ma head
Get it over with
I don't wanna do this Anymore....

for the reason im still here is U....

June 03, 2006

its the weekend.....sat....evry1 is probabbly goin out of country....headin to town to chill or club later at nite.....or at werk earning extra cash......me...i juz finish joggin 2.4 x2 = 4.8 km hahahha.....woke up freakin late, ate n jog......i guess i shudnt complaint n enjoy this kind of sat....n the tot of NDP will probably take up most of ma sat....well did i mention im gonna be helpin up with usherin.....hahhaa......wearin sentosa-like uniform....like those bus captains....eheheh

i shud be finishin ma overdue reports today....i'll try....muahahahaha....or maybe juz go out for awhile b4 that juz a trip to causeway pt wudnt kill....wud it....wif who u ask....hahah....me, myslf n i? duh, nth new....dun frat it....i smhw enjoy bein by myslf.... but then again....it maybe nice to hv company once in a while....perhaps ask mummy n farra to go along....muahahah....

well u guess it....it 3.30am...im up here....reflectin on ma life..ma overdue ica is still undone....i'll get it done son...insyaallah....still workin on intro masquerade dance...n meetin Kampung ubi cast on sunday...

n now i heard that im gonna be up to option 2 at work( a line handling complaint )
cam stress lah eh......thinkin on how i hv no time to actually werk....but least to say...im good.....admit it....hahhaha....

n was juz smilin as i reflect back n readin entries of the days wif u guys, ma dearies PS-ian.....each n evry1 engraves a smile......u make me feel this life is beautiful.....

n days r passin wif me missing nad n yayid more then eva.....i only get a glimpse of nad at work.....n yayid....smtimes...he juz cant be bothered huh....well he's got he's own life too.....well he's ma bro....hahahah...

rabakz bro....went mos ladies nite....nvr ask me along.....erggghhh.....

hm.... smtimes ii wonder??? am i such a freak? or am i juz not that sociable...
or even an anti-social freak....heee...u tell me.....

June 01, 2006

well 3.43 am....done ironing ma formal wear.....mite be down to mos wif zila n wawa..... after work tho......gosh....werk....afta that freakin seminar.......
ayid...is smwhr in his own world....n im in mine...kinda sad bt true...
its overwhelmin....
today im angry.....coz oni i cr.....
argghhh.... i'll juz live ma life.......



Empty heart....


starring elfi ismail.....

i noe im suppose to be studyin for paper at 4....tho lec is at 3....its 1pm...i juz finish showerin afta gettin out of bed....muahahahaha....

its no laughin matter really...tho i dunno y im takin it so lightly....like suddenly...where's my priority.....damn it...im losing it......

gonna iron ma shirt, c wats up nxt...

confuseD....

i noe i promise myslf early sleep....gettin to it the nxt 5 mins.....

** assignment n ica sok....haiyo...

so im juz thankful like the ps family has grown...n ps is engrave in evry1's heart....

n yeah....wat else i wanted to note....

practice was fufilling..... tho ma head is clouded....push me ppl....im suppose to teach u guy the nxt step yet i keep polishin the front n back....

ma head is clouded...im thinkin wrg stuff..or wait if im even thinkin.....gosh....astagfirullah....

n the ah ah meee errr.....craze is simply unique yet overwhelmin...hehehe


n luv the new randition of

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desakan ombak meragut nyawa pendayu...

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muackss....
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